Both. I didn't talk about how much I want to write it. The point-form outline is waiting to be filled out with the scenes from my head. And I know that I could just let it go - so many WIP's are unfinished/abandoned. I even tried to do that at one point so that I could make peace with it not being done, but it fucking haunts me to the point where I'm paralyzed.

I'm so glad I met you too!!! *hugs*