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drusillas_rain) wrote2006-02-14 12:15 pm
drusillas_rain) wrote2006-02-14 12:15 pm
meh
I've been feeling rather down lately. The new year started off relatively well, I was excited to get back in the swing of things, not just fic-wise, but at home too. I spent the latter half of 2005 travelling a lot for work, and was feeling burnt out. This term, I'm staying in Toronto, and in January things were looking up.
It's only February, but I'm already feeling stressed out. I haven't written a thing in weeks, and am finding even 100-word drabbles take so much energy. Last night I was going to try to be a bit productive and go grocery shopping, but instead I spent the night watching 1 episode of "My Name is Earl", 1 ep of "Veronica Marrs" (I've just discovered the show so I'm halfway through season 1), and 3 eps of "CSI" (season 4 eps). I have to admit, it felt great at the time, but now I'm feeling guilty, thinking that I really should have done something/anything else.
I'm having a hard time focusing on work, and anytime I think about doing something, even as simple as having a bubble bath, I feel like I'm going to get a panic attack. I'm not prone to them, but am prone to depression and just can't seem to shake off whatever it is I'm going through. I've been taking 5-htp on and off, but it isn't fixing whatever the fuck is wrong with me.
What do you do to cheer yourself up?
It's only February, but I'm already feeling stressed out. I haven't written a thing in weeks, and am finding even 100-word drabbles take so much energy. Last night I was going to try to be a bit productive and go grocery shopping, but instead I spent the night watching 1 episode of "My Name is Earl", 1 ep of "Veronica Marrs" (I've just discovered the show so I'm halfway through season 1), and 3 eps of "CSI" (season 4 eps). I have to admit, it felt great at the time, but now I'm feeling guilty, thinking that I really should have done something/anything else.
I'm having a hard time focusing on work, and anytime I think about doing something, even as simple as having a bubble bath, I feel like I'm going to get a panic attack. I'm not prone to them, but am prone to depression and just can't seem to shake off whatever it is I'm going through. I've been taking 5-htp on and off, but it isn't fixing whatever the fuck is wrong with me.
What do you do to cheer yourself up?
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Yeah, I need to learn to do that. Thanks so much for the hugs - I think I'm feeling better today